Who am I that I should go?

Why isn’t it about merit? Why couldn’t it be based off of what I have done? Why can’t I rest in good behavior? I haven’t broken the law. My husband and kids seem to be pleased with my efforts in and outside of the home.

Statistics around the USA specify that more than 80% of Americans claim “Christianity” when asked if they have faith. Why does that number seem alarming to me?

“Do not come closer,” He said “Remove the sandals from your feet, for the place where you are standing is on holy ground.” Then He continued, “I am the God of your father, the God of Abraham, the God of Issac, and the God of Jacob.” Moses hid his face because he was afraid to look at God. Exodus 2:5&6

This gives us insight on a specific God. So if the question went from “What faith do you claim?” to “Which god do you serve?” Would you know the answer to that question? Would that seem offensive? Personal? For myself, before I met Jesus, I would answer along with the other 80% of fellow Americans. But when I first encountered Jesus, I would have answered, unsure. The gospel I heard–the Truth of Jesus Christ, collided with every ounce of my American soul. Just being honest.

Frankly, my stomach gets in knots when I hear phrases like “If you just depend on Jesus, your life will prosper.” “If you just believe the power of the Resurrection, your faith will take you anywhere you want to go” Now, hear me out, those two statements surrounded by solid theology can be in GOOD context. But, more often than not, it’s a false gospel and Paul warns the church to put on the full armor of God so that you can stand against the schemes of the devil.  (Ephesians 6:10-20) And whatever isn’t of God, well….. the enemy. Pretty clear.

So 21 years of my life, I wandered. Just being tossed by the waves of the sea. BUT, God, pursued and met me.

“When the Lord saw that he (Moses) had gone over to look, God called out to him from the bush, “Moses! Moses!” “Here I am,” Moses answered. “Do not come closer,” He said “Remove the sandals from your feet, for the place where you are standing is on holy ground.” Then He continued, “I am the God of your father, the God of Abraham, the God of Issac, and the God of Jacob.” Moses hid his face because he was afraid to look at God.” Exodus 2:4-6

The burning bush is a story you probably have heard before whether you are in church culture or not. Maybe its a story from VBS days when your grandma made you go. When I first, (and maybe 12 times after) read about the burning bush it seems like a fable. Like, for real, this is a joke? (I’m just being honest) There is no way, bushes can talk. But, over a course of reading the Scriptures in context…I see consistency. Donkeys talking, Red Sea parting, angels talking, and broken people being led by God. Fable. Fable. Fable. BOOM. Broken people being led by God? That didn’t seem like a fairy tale. That just simply seemed to good to be true.

Now, because God softened my heart, I can tell you, The Creator of all can do what He wants. Doesn’t seem far-fetched. Bushes burning YET not consumed by fire? Control under the authority of the Creator. Donkeys speaking? Well, they too, are under the authority of their Creator. The Red Sea parting? It’s Creator has authority. God is in control of His creation. His people. His things.

“therefore, GO! I (God) am sending you to Pharoah so that you may lead my people, the Israelites, out of Egypt. BUT MOSES asked God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and that I should bring the Israelites out of Egypt?” Exodus 2:11

That is what I–too want to know. Who am I, that You, my Lord, chose me? It’s not based on my merit. Not what I have done. NOR, what I haven’t done. (I think that’s more appropriate for our culture) It’s not based on my theology. My gifts. Myself.

“He (God) answered, “I will certainly be with you, and this will be the sign to you that I am the One who sent you: when you bring the people out of Egypt, you will all worship Me at this mountain” Exodus 2:12

The Word NEVER makes it about ME. Never has. Never will. It’s ALWAYS about the “I AM” The ONE True God. I heard and responded to this evidence (throughout a period of time) and seeking to walk out this side of the kingdom under the instruction to….

“therefore, GO!” 

 

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